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Almost a year later, I'm writing from a hotel room. I moved in May of this year to an isolated beautiful place. So much has happened, all I have is gratitude to God for giving me the strength to keep going when all I wanted to do is give up. Sometimes we dont realize how real things can be to others, everyone deals with everything differently and I guess I'm one of those people who takes and takes and takes until something hits hard and everything else seems to be falling down... hard... quick.

I've met some wonderful people in the past 4 months. I hate when you meet these people and then they gotta go, or you gotta go and all you have left are memories.

I've learned some things living here... not to take everything as it seems and to always watch out not matter how nice people may seem. To be a little more private, to be a little more patient.

Seems like living here things are 5 times for difficult to deal with, not only distance wise but people wise and convenience wise... HOrrible.

I just wanna take a deep breath right now and calm down. Let it all soak in and analyze my life. Question where it's going and where I want it to go and set goals and work on my priorities. I feel like everytime I try to do something right, I either end up doing something wrong or end up messing something up, or hurting someone, or making things more difficult. I'm so tired of it and I just don't wanna deal with all this anymore. I dont know what to do... All I know is that I'm tired and I am no longer going to try... I'm done............ . . .


No more.

So it's been forever and 2 days since I wrote. But lately I haven't really felt like it. I guess much has happened but nothing HUUUUGE. So...

Work is going alright. Still boring somewhat. Somedays I'm okay, others I keep asking myself why I'm doing what I'm doing. But eeeeh....

Started belly dancing again, thank goodness. It's been a loooong time! I'm so glad I started back up, I've missed it for a while.

Still waiting to hear if I'm gonna get out of here or not. I guess I'll be finding out in December...around the 15th or so. If I do, I'll prolly be leaving sometime during Jul/Aug/Sep time frame...I cannot wait!

Brasil trip is only a month away. Priceline ripped me off completely. I'm only gonna be staying for 3 days due to their change of my itinerary, they cut my time short. I was extremely angry, so I'm trying to fix it somehow. I might not get my money back, but those bastartd won't get away with this one. I'm gonna complain if it's the last thing I do! So some people are helping me out on this...hopefully something happens.

I'm going to Vegas in about 2 weeks. I'm excited...gonna go see Cam and meet Sharon...whooohooo! finally!!! We're gonna go get tattoos together although I'm not 100% sure about me getting mine...we shall see!

I'm going home for Christmas...I'm excited about that since it's been 2 yrs since I spent Christmas with my family, and that's always such a great time. I totally took fwd to it.

I went to visit David in NJ. It was nice, the weather really sucked but we got a chance to walk around Philly and shop and the mall, and watch movies 'cept for those nasty pets in the apt....lol yuck....time to move babe...time to move!!!

Anyway, other than that, everthing's been okay. My back...still hurting. Oh, I found out my brother's getting married, and I'm happy for him but I definitly think it's too soon. Sooooo I hope I make it to the wedding and I hope this is IT.

The hurricane in FL. Thank God my family's good and safe. Thank God.

I put some chocolate covered cranberries for the faeries out on my deck...so we'll see. I think it's too cold right now though for them to come out.

Clementine is good...but she wonders about Kali. She really wants to see her so I might bring her along...Cam, get Kali ready for this meeting.

Halloween...finally got my costume together. I'm excited caues I've always loved costume parties, and I've always wanted to have one for my birthday but it has never been possible...so this year for Halloween, we're dressing up and going to Jose's for the party.

I can't believe I'll be 23...I really can't. It's really weird for me. It's not that I feel old or anything, but I just can't believe I'll be 23. I still feel like I'm 18 or something...oh well.

I think this is it for now. I keep writing nonsense...so yah.

Thanks for reading...and for checking out my stuff

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TODO DE UNA VEZ

No he escrito hace siglos. Pero como que no he tenido ganas. Creo que mucho ha pasado pero nada super importante.

El trabajo esta bien, aburrido...a veces. Algunos dias me siento bien, y otros me sigo preguntando por que hago lo que hago....eeehhh....

Comenze a bailar otra vez (dance de barriga). Al fin! Ha pasado mucho tiempo, lo extrano mucho.
Todavia sigo esperando que me digan si me voy de aqui o no. Talvez sale algo en diciembre...como el 15 or algo asi. Si sale algo, a lo mejor me voy como en Julio - Augosto - Septiembre...por ahi...

Solo falta un mes para el viaje a Brasil! Compre el ticket por Priceline, y me robaron los idiotas. Solo me voy a quedar por 3 dias porque me cambiaron las horas 3 veces. Ahora estoy escribiendole una carta a la compania...y a todas las revistas de viajes, talvez no me van a devolver el dinero, pero por lo menos la gente sabra de lo que hicieron.

Voy a Las Vegas en 2 semanas. Estoy super alegre. Voy a ver a Cam y a conocer a Sharon...woohoo! al fin! Vamos a tatuarnos talvez, ellos si saben, pero yo no estoy muy segura.

Voy a Miami para Navidad....Ha pasado como 2 anos desde la ultima Navidad con la familia. Y me encanta porque siempre es super divertido.

Visite a David en New Jersey. Estuvo bueno pero el clima estuvo horrible. Caminamos por downtown Philly y por el mall, fuimos al cine. David se tiene que mudar, ese apt esta un asco.

Todo esta bien. Mi espalda sigue doliendo. Y mi hermano se va a casar en Julio del proximo ano. Creo que se esta apresurando mucho, pero ojala que sea una buena decision.

Puse frutas cuviertas en chocolates afuera en el balcon, para las adas...jeejeee....quien sabe. Talvez hace mucho frio ahorita para que vengan.

Clementine esta bien.....siempre piensa en Kali. La quiere ver pronto, talvez la llevo...

Halloween...alfin termine mi disfraz. Siempre me han gustado las fiestas de disfrases, y siempre he querido una para mi cumpleanos pero no ha sido posible. Entonces este ano para Halloween, nos vamos a disfrasar y hacer fiesta en la casa de Jose.

No puedo creer que voy a cumplir 23...de veras. Es super raro...no me siento vieja ni nada, pero no lo puedo creer. Siento que tengo como 18!

Creo que es todo por ahora, sigo escribiendo tonterias.

Gracias por leer....y por ver a mi galleria.

Alright so I get a new job. Right? Riiiight. Sucks…BIG TIME. But oh well. I hope I’ll be out of here soon. I mean, I hope I get a chance to go overseas soon. I was searching earlier for Norway, and it looks pretty cool but pretty small the city, so I don’t know. Besides, it’s for a higher position so who knows.

I’ve made up my mind. I’m gonna go for Graphic Design and Languages. I loooove languages and I think I’d really enjoy Graphic Design so we shall see. I cannot wait to start school again and take a bunch of art classes. So that will prolly be sometime in the springtime.

Have you ever wondered why people dress the way they do? I mean, I know there’s some that dress like they do because they wanna make a statement, because they like a certain style, because they like the clothes. Why do you dress like you do?
I mean sometimes I sit and watch people and I have this feeling I just wanna grab them and take them shopping and show them how terrible certain things look on them, and how much better they’ll look with a little fix. It’s not about looking attractive all the time, it’s about presentation, it’s about feeling good for yourself. I dunno, heck if you feel good that way good for you, but I’m just saying….you can feel better.

You know what I hate? Watery coffee…cold coffee and cold pizza. I hate people that don’t take care of themselves as far as always eating candy, and chocolate, and fried stuff and fast foods, I hate that stuff.
Oh! And people that can’t talk for themselves…BIG no no. Or people that are really close minded about music….HUGE no no.

But I love how eventhough you find someone extremely weird or someone that gives you a bad impression just be seeing them, then you find out they’re the sweetest thing on earth. I love that…like when you find someone you think are completely opposites of you and then BAM! Surprise surprise you end up loooving this person for their personality or whatever. I think that’s so cool! *bites fingernails*

The other day I was watching some movie and I thought about back in the day when we thought that by this year we’d have flying cars and stuff… LOL I don’t really think that’s gonna happen anytime soon. I mean for the whole world to do that? Doubt it. Maybe in 100 yrs I think.

I really wanna meet a mermaid though. I mean they’re so cool…but I’d suddenly wanna get a knife and cut their big fin just cause I’d feel they need to be free. I mean I know they don’t but I’d feel like they’re tied you know?

What about you? What do YOU want to meat? I mean meet? Who?????


Donaji

Listening to: Je sei namorar (Tribalistas)

I know I haven't written in a while but really... who cares? This past week was good, it was nice for David and I to spend time together and talk, it was nice to just relax. The weekend was nice, we went dancing and watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, that was excellent! *thumbs up*

Sunday was...overwhelming, scary, emotional, difficult, sad, different. Sometimes it's hard to see why things happen the way they do, and I'm thankful for everything that's happened til now, eventhough it's prolly been the hardest part of my life, but I'm thankful for it because I know it was supposed to happen and without it I will not be what I will be in the future. We live...we learn...

Another week at work. I just found out this morning I'm going to another job. I don't know what to expect so I'm just gonna go with a positive mind, hopefully I hear of moving papers sometime at the end of the year...yeay!

Jim came today. It was hilarious. He called me at work and told me to "let's go to lunch!" I was like...what the.....!?!! It was good to see him again after so long!!! so we caught up on stuff, went to eat and to the movies. Finally saw that Island movie...very good. I liked it a lot. I went to the bathroom after the movies...the stall doors are called "Hiney Hiders".

I thought about the whole clone thing, and I think I would definetly freak out if I see my clone, I'll start touching her face and stuff like making sure she was real. Prolly just stare at her and maybe pass out.

I just got home and I'm tired but my phone doesn't work! it's been doing this Digital Roaming crap...what the!!!??? Ugh, I'm so tired of it...it's like it comes and goes, it's annoying!

I have to show up to the new job tomorrow morning and finish out-processing and crap. I just realized all the people in the group are mostly gone! it's crazy, it's like I'm one of the "last ones"....*crosses fingers* need orders!

You know what it'd be fun? If I pretend to be someone completely different for a day, like a hooker, or a like a punk or a goth...or maybe a bartender or something crazy, fun.

Until tomorrow or so...

-Donaji-